I was suffering hiatal hernia since 2008. It began when I surpressed my anger, and then I felt something was going up inside my epygastrum. And since that moment, I always feel strangled and trembled inside my epygastrum all of the time. I also couldn't take full deep breathing. At the time, I didn't know that it was hiatal hernia and I thought that it was caused by the evil disruption to my self.
I live with the symptoms year by year without paying attention to heal the symptoms. During the time, I always felt thightness and trembled inside my epygastrum. Sometimes it was not hard, but when my emotion is high, it got worsen so badly until I felt dying and just laying my body to a chair or a bed. I couldn't described how painful it was. The painful I meant is not ache, but I felt so strangled and trembled (trembled = palpilation) inside my epygastrum and thightness and burn (hot sensation) along my sternum. Along this time too, I was never can take full deep breathing.... I have forgot how it feels that my lung can be full filled with oxygen by taking a full deep breathing. I can't feel my self again, it's not my whole self again, I am not who I was before I suffered from this illness.
In 2016, I started to try to heal my self from the symptoms that I suffered. Then I searched on the internet about what illness that could cause the symptoms that I suffered. Firstly, I found that it was caused by reflux of the gastric's acid (GERD). But when I searched futher, I found that the symptoms which I suffered was caused by hiatal hernia.
To heal the illness that I have known from the searching I did before, I tried some treatments. Firstly, I consumed Omeprazole which is a drug to stop the production of gastric's acid. At the beginning of the consumption, I felt the thightness in my chest get reduced but not dissappeared completely. But at the mid of the consumption (until about 4 days since the first consumption day), the symptoms are back and I felt the drug has no effects again to relieve the symptoms. Then I stopped the drug consumption.
I went to my parent and told them that I suspect that I was suffering from hiatal hernia. I told them that hiatal hernia is the condition that a portion of stomach is pushing up through the diaphragm's hole and get trapped there, but they was unbelieve to me and thought that what I said was impossible and they never heard something like that before. But then, they took me to a doctor. Unfortunately, the doctor who they took me to was unfamiliar to hiatal hernia. He (the doctor) assumed me that it was just due to my anxienty. Although I tried to convince him repeatly that I was sure I was suffering from hiatal hernia, he didn't listen (or give attention) to what I said. He didn't even try to find out whether my explanation about hiatal hernia is true or not.
So, I just surrender from what I was facing, my parent had more believe to the doctor than to me. He (the doctor) just give me Nexium (the same drug as Omeprazole which I have had comsumed before). I knew that this drug (Nexium) can't heal me, I knew too that my illness just can be healed by surgery. So, I just follow my parent's way for treatment by consuming Nexium. After the consumption of Nexium has done, my symptoms were still exist and no relieve at all. I went to my parent and told them that my symptoms were still exist, and I ask my parent to do an endoscopy check to find out whether I have hiatal hernia or not.
Then I went to a local hospital and did the endoscopy check there. I believed that after the endoscopy check, I will get the answer of whether I had hiatal hernia or not, but the reality was different. Before the endoscopy examination was started, I asked to the doctor who will did endoscopy examination to me that I want him to focus to check whether I had hiatal hernia condition or not. But when he heard of what I asked, he replied me:
Doctor : "Do you know the Hiatal Hernia's symptoms ?"
Me : "Yes, the symptoms are feeling strangled inside epygastrum, can't take full breathing, quick palpilation."
Doctor : "No, but the symptom is if you eat something, and then you laying down, the food will regurgitate from the stomach back to your mouth."
Me : "No doctor, you are wrong. I am sure that I am suffering Hiatal Hernia. I have read from internet too that the sufferers of Hiatal Hernia have the same symptoms as what I have described."
Doctor : "Don't believe to the reference on internet, but believe to scientific research. I have had done many endoscopy check to many pasients, about 500 peoples in 5 year, and from all of them I have just found maybe about 1 or 2 people that suffer from Hiatal Hernia. Hiatal Hernia condition is rarely found on general people, that condition is often innate from birth."
This is exactly my conversation with the doctor who will did endoscopy examination on me. From this conversation, I felt that the doctor was looking trivial to my request and rejected my request because he looked that I was too worried about hiatal hernia and I though that he doesn't believe that hiatal hernia condition can exist on general people. For me, hiatal hernia condition isn't innated from birth and it can be happened to any body at any time.
During the time of examination, I felt that the doctor didn't check carefully whether I had hiatal hernia or not. It is the first time I did endoscopy check and I experienced that it was a painful and horrible examination on me. If I could, I would avoid to do the endoscopy examination again because of it's painful during the examination. I wish the endoscopy's technology tools will be renowned so the endoscopy examination will not be painful to the pasient.
The endoscopy was done and the result was out. The endoscopy's result just stated that I had irreguler of 1/3 Z-line area, many gastric ulcer, and GERD Grade B. But it didn't state that I had hiatal hernia.
I wasn't satisfied with this endoscopy's result, because what I want to know is whether I had hiatal hernia or not, but I didn't get answer from this endoscopy examination. By looking at the pictures of the endoscopy's result, I saw that my Z-line area had some irregular area and I suspected that maybe it indicated that I had hiatal hernia. I wasn't judging, but I just assumed that I had hiatal hernia. The irregular z-line area was small, but however, from another sufferer's experience that I had read, even the small hiatal hernia can cause big problem to it's sufferer.
After then, I haven't check more about my illness to a doctor. My symptoms are still exist, always there, and sometimes get worse that made me felt so bad. The symptoms are mild when I have just awake from my rest (sleep), but then after 3 hours, the symptoms are become extreme again that made me feel so hard to do my activity. So, I just can survive about 3 hours since the last time I awake from my rest and after that is the sick time of which I spend until I took a rest again.
By the way, I also suffered from sinusitis, which I thought is get worsen by the present of Hiatal Hernia. Sometimes, when I had cold / flu, I felt my head is full filled of mucus, and I felt deficit of the blood circulation in my head. I was so anxious about my head's problem until I thought that I suffered from meningitis. But later, I found that my head's problem (full of mucus & feel deficit of blood circulation) was caused by the combination of sinusitis and Hiatal Hernia which I suffered.
I will always be here (try to put some eye on this blog) to inform you the latest update about my health, in the hope that what I have shared here maybe can be useful for you to get some guide for your curement from this 'demon' illness. Ok.
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